“Do you trust me?”
This is the famous line from the Disney movie Aladdin, when Aladdin asks Princess Jasmine if she trusted him before she was whisked away onto a magic carpet ride with him.
As a young girl, I often dreamt of the day my loving prince would come and sweep me off my feet and unto a magic carpet ride also. Well, maybe not a magic carpet, but you get the idea.
Years have passed since I first saw this film, and I still like the idea of a man (a Godly man, don’t get it twisted) coming to sweep me off my feet. I even think the idea of creating a whole new world together sounds great (maybe it’s just the hopeless romantic in me) .
The truth is that there has already been a man who has come to earth to sweep me off my feet, to reconcile me to the greatest love story that has ever been demonstrated. He is the Prince of Peace and His name is Jesus.
“But God demonstrates His own love toward us, in that while we were still sinners, Christ died for us.” Romans 5:8 (NKJV)
Wow, while we were yet sinners Christ demonstrated His love for us - for you, for me, for us individually, intricately, and personally. The thought of this love is more than my brain can possibly comprehend.
With the vast love of God, you would think that we should never have trouble trusting in Him.
But just like the question Aladdin asked Jasmine, there was a season in my life I felt the Holy Spirit saying “you don’t trust me.”
After I graduated college in 2015, real life hit me like a semi-truck going 90 miles per hour down the free-way. What once came easily to me in college did not come easy in adulthood. I did not land my dream job right away, I did not meet the man of my dreams, and I was not living out my life’s calling. I was in a season of waiting, a season that I did not particularly like or understand, and wanted to fight against it.
The funny thing about life is that it is not a perfect linear increasing slope. It is a line full of highs, lows, and plateaus. As the reality of life not being an uphill climb unfolded, I found the foundations of my trust in God shaken.
The Holy Spirit would whisper to my heart Proverbs 3:5-6 (NLT), it reads:
"Trust in the Lord with all your heart; do not depend on your own understanding. Seek his will in all you do, and he will show you which path to take."
At first, I did not want to admit that I had trouble trusting God at all.
I would think, “does not trusting God make me less of a Christian? Was God disappointed in me? How could I not trust God after all He had done for me?”
But the truth was, I did not trust God.
I am a 1 on the enneagram personality test. We love order, lists, and planning. And in that season, I did just that. I planned, I organized, and I made very calculated decisions that I could determine the outcome. I liked control. Control meant safety. Safety is great, but we should never let safety turn into just good enough.
Safety sometimes can mean no growth, and I know you, just like me, do not want to be a Christian that is stagnant or just comfortable.
Life has a way of throwing obstacles our way, and those very obstacles that I once dreaded became pinnacle moments in my faith that I was able to grow to trust God more. I now recognize that God was never afraid of me not trusting Him; He simply knew He was trustworthy, and knew that if I would simply release control and rely on Him it would be better for me in the long run.
If we are going to trust the Lord, we have to let go completely, surrender all control to Him, and wait for God to meet us on the other side of that surrender. This is truly the center of what faith is. Through the years since, I have grown in my trust in God, not perfectly, but way more than I used to. I have a history with God that shows me His faithfulness and that He is true to His word.
If you are struggling to trust God today, I want you to recall the times in your life that He has faithfully come through for you. Even if you think there is not one time that He has been faithful, trust me; He has been. Once you discover that truth, let that history guide you to continue trusting God in all of life’s ups and downs.