“Surely your goodness and love will follow me all the days of my life, and I will dwell in the house of the Lord forever.” Psalms 23:6 (NIV)
One of the hardest things for me to admit as a Christian is that I struggle at times with believing that God is good.
Hear me out. I know the Bible is full of His goodness and so are the songs that are played on the radio from the Christian radio station that I work for.
The actual tagline for my workplace is “God is good all the time.” There are also movies like God’s Not Dead that say things like “God is good all the time, and all the time God is good.”
But what does that really mean? Sometimes it seems like we use that tagline or those sayings to put a bandaid on the many mishaps of life without actually acknowledging the pain that we feel.
In the past, when turmoil would wreak havoc in my life, my reaction would be, “but God is good, and it will all be fine.” Then months would pass, (and sometimes years), and I would discover that my heart had not healed at all.
I would find my praises to God going from “God you are so good” to questioning “God, are you good?”
Why were tragedies happening every single day, and why did my prayers and intercession feel like they were going not only unanswered, but unheard?
“God, don’t you care?”
“Don’t you see I am in pain?”
“Why won’t you come down and make this all better?”
Matthew 5:45 (NLT) says, “In that way, you will be acting as true children of your Father in heaven. For he gives his sunlight to both the evil and the good, and he sends rain on the just and the unjust alike.”
Just because we live a life for Christ does not mean we will be free from burdens, free from pain, or free from brokenness.
God is good, but some situations are just terrible. I am just now learning to express the realness in my heart and the pain and the agony that I may feel and know that it is okay to do so. God is the remedy to all of our problems, but we first have to admit that there is a problem or a pain.
Though the pain is real and an agonizing hardship, God is able to absorb all of it if we are real and broken before Him. When I am able to truly lament, I am then truly able to say that God is good through prayers and songs. I am not just saying the words because it is what I am supposed to say or simply because it is true, but because I truly believe what I am saying.
Something can be so true, but if it does not take root inside our heart, it can seem like falsehood. God’s goodness is anything but that.
The wonderful thing about the goodness of God is that He promises to be with us in the midst of the storms of life (Isaiah 4:6). He has such a heart of love and kindness for us that He can carry the weight of those burdens and that pain. He can take that brokenness and ashes and turn it into something beautiful.
Today, I want you to be real with God about the pain inside of your heart. Do not avoid ugly crying, and do not use the excuse that you do not have time to be sad. Trust me, if you keep putting off dealing with the pain that is inside of you it will be exposed in other areas of your life or at a later time.
So, deal with it now, so you do not have to deal with it later. God is not afraid to hear us speak of our pain, our mixed up perspectives of Him, or that we feel unheard by Him. He wants to hear the truth that is inside of each of our hearts.
We can trust God with our pain and brokenness and know that His goodness has the power to heal every pain inside of us and to be the light in the midst of any tragedy.