In the short six months my son has been on this earth, I have become completely obsessed with him.
I can take photos and videos of him all day long and will proudly show him off to anyone who dares ask me about him. Honestly, I will probably talk about him even if you don’t even ask about him.
Even on the days where he has restless sleep and wears me out, I can’t help but look down at him in my arms in awe of how beautiful and sweet he is.
Most late nights, I wonder how I could have made something so beautiful. This little angel is a part of me, yet so uniquely perfect in my eyes.
For once in my life, I feel like I can fully grasp the way God looks down on me, and on each one of you.
I believe my obsession for my son began the first time I saw the blue smoke appear at our gender reveal, and I finally knew his name. Levi James finally had an identity, and I could not wait to hold my sweet boy.
However, the father’s love for us started much sooner. In fact, he knew us by name before we were even a thought to our parents.
“Before I formed you in the womb I knew you, and before you were born I consecrated you;.”Jeremiah 1:5 (ESV)
I think it is pretty great that God took the time to breathe life into each one of us and make us uniquely beautiful in his eyes.
“For you formed my inward parts; you knitted me together in my mother’s womb. I praise you, for I am fearfully and wonderfully made. Wonderful are your works; my soul knows it very well. My frame was not hidden from you, when I was being made in secret, intricately woven in the depths of the earth. Your eyes saw my unformed substance; in your book were written, every one of them, the days that were formed for me, when as yet there was none of them.” Psalm 139:13-16 (ESV)
I have always read the first few verses of psalms 139, but I noticed something different this time reading. The word “intricate” popped out in this translation. God thought of every single detail when creating us. Nothing was left out in our design!
I want you to remember that God made you in His image, you are fearfully and wonderfully made, and your design is intricate. God makes no mistakes, and we should never count ourselves as one.
It blows my mind that I can look at my son, a part of me, and see nothing but perfection. However, I’ll look at myself, made in the image of God, and speak so low of myself and His creation.
I pray we can leave behind this habit and start walking as children of God.
Another thing I noticed in this verse is that God planned out all of our days, even before the earth was created. Wow, it is crazy to think how much I worry about a future that has already been planned out by my loving Father before the earth was even formed! Just like I plan to provide the best future for my child, God already has my life written out, and I believe it will continue to be beautiful because the Father loves me.
No matter how many times I mess up and disappoint God, His love for me never runs dry.
“For I am sure that neither death nor life, nor angels nor rulers, nor things present nor things to come, nor powers, nor height nor depth, nor anything else in all creation, will be able to separate us from the love of God in Christ Jesus our Lord.” Romans 8:38-39 (ESV)
From here on out, I want to walk as a true child of God. I want to live out the truth that He loves me and created me intricately and with a purpose. I pray you do the same. When we know our proud Father is beaming down to see each moment, it makes life worth living for Him. I know for me personally, I want to make my Father proud.
“See what kind of love the Father has given to us, that we should be called children of God....” 1 John 3:1 (ESV)