I am currently in my second pregnancy, and my biggest struggle this time is the lack of hunger.
Everyone talks about what they craved while pregnant, and instead I got tons of aversions. Nothing sounds appetizing and eating just sounds like a daunting task. Sometimes I have to make myself eat to help with the fatigue and weakness.
Have you ever lacked a spiritual appetite? You know seeking God through prayer, worship and prayer is essential to spiritual health, but somehow you find yourself just not in the mood to do any of it. As a result, you gradually find yourself becoming tired and defeated in your walk with God.
My husband and I recently began the search for a church to call our home. We have been in prayer about what things are most important to us in a church home, and one of those things is to be spiritually fed truth straight from God’s word.
“Like newborn infants, long for the pure spiritual milk, that by it you may grow up into salvation— if indeed you have tasted that the Lord is good.” 1 Peter 2:2-3 (ESV)
Now let me preface by saying there is no church that is perfect, and most have a desire at the root to serve Christ.
However, in my search for a home church, as I have been paying close attention to believers around me as well as well-known churches and ministers who I have followed for some time, I have noticed a recurring theme - a lack of hunger for God.
We instead hunger after the things of God, or the things He can do for us - leaving us unsatisfied and still searching.
“To the teaching and to the testimony! If they will not speak according to this word, it is because they have no dawn. They will pass through the land, greatly distressed and hungry. And when they are hungry, they will be enraged and will speak contemptuously against their king and their God, and turn their faces upward.” Isaiah 8:20-21 (ESV)
So many messages today are about living our most fulfilled and prosperous life. The message is centered around me and my needs rather than Christ, who deserves my whole heart.
I am humbling myself by saying I was not put on this earth to live a fulfilled, prosperous life. Yes, God has plans to use me and you in our individual lives, but our sole purpose of breathing is for Him. This world and the joys in it are only temporary, but God is eternal. What He has for us, far exceeds our short time here on this earth.
I want to hunger for Him - not wealth, not joy, not a picture-perfect family - just Him!
I recently read a book by Mark Hall of Casting Crowns titled, “The Well.” It highlights how we go to many things such as religion, our own abilities, earthly treasures, approval of others, and so forth to fill our empty souls when truly the only thing that can fill our thirst and hunger is God Himself.
Hall mentions how the woman of the well was one example who was always looking for men to fill her hunger. As she talked to Jesus, she thought she was standing by a well talking to a man when in actuality she was talking to THE WELL while standing next to a hole in the ground.
“Jesus said to them, “I am the bread of life; whoever comes to me shall not hunger, and whoever believes in me shall never thirst.” John 6:35 (ESV).
Are you hungry for the blessings or the One who blesses? Is your spiritual walk centered around yourself and what you get out of it, or around getting to know and serve our Savior?
Just like my marriage would be doomed to failure if I only desired my husband’s income, the things he bought me, or the label marriage gave me rather than just wanting to be with him and know him, the same applies to our relationship with God.
When we get to Heaven, the question is not going to be about how many church services you attended, the amount of mission trips you went on, how many scripture you can quote, or
how much of God’s favor was in your life.
Can you say you know God and hunger for more of Him? In the book of Matthew, we see how important our relationship and intimacy with God is when we get to Heaven.
“On that day many will say to me, ‘Lord, Lord, did we not prophesy in your name, and cast out demons in your name, and do many mighty works in your name?’ And then will I declare to them, ‘I never knew you; depart from me, you workers of lawlessness.’” Matthew 7:22-23 (ESV)
Stop hungering for the next big thing in your life that is temporary. He is already there waiting to fill your hunger by just being in His presence.
May we hunger and thirst after Jesus more than the healing, wealth, joy, a spiritual high and more.