“I am not ready,” was my first thought when my alarm went off.
The day before had been trying, to say the least. It was one of those days my children had been “off the chain.” One kid had undecorated the Christmas tree, another colored on my hall closet door (the one you see when you first walk in my house, yep that one), and my once barely clean house was in shambles.
I drove to Michael’s later that same evening with my hubby and kids in tow. We got in the store, and I realized I put the keys in the diaper bag and then decided not to bring the diaper bag in. Yeah, you guessed it. We were locked out of the car.
When we finally made it home, way later than expected, my frustration level was at an all time high, my taunting insecurities rising up. I quickly put everyone in bed, and I followed shortly.
All of these memories from just the day before flooded my mind as I hit the 6:10 AM snooze button. I was already aggravated, and the day had not even started.
Have you ever been there before? You have not even started your day, and you are already frustrated and aggravated.
I turned on some worship music and began to try and quiet my spirit. I had no words to pray, but just reminded God that today I needed his grace and strength.
This scripture came to me: “My grace is sufficient, my strength is made perfect in your weakness.” 2 Corinthian 12:9 (NIV)
Mommying (as I call it) is hard. If you are married, being a wife is hard. Just holding down your job and career is hard.
There are days where I am sure you feel like me and that, no matter how hard you try, you are failing, falling short of your goals. God reminds me in those times that it is when His grace is most evident in my life.
Those times are when He wants me to lean on Him.
James 1:2 (KJV), reminds us to “count it all joy when we go through trials and temptations, because it works patience in us.”
The day to day life trials are designed to work patience inside of us, but even more so, to draw us closer to God. I know I need His strength and His grace to be the mom, wife, and ministry leader He has called me to be. I cannot do it without Him, so it forces me to be right where He wants me all along sitting at His feet.
Sitting at the feet of Jesus is where I find grace, strength, and His wisdom to get through my day, to be a wife, a mom, and the many other hats that I wear. As I sit at His feet, He reminds me who I am and whose I am. I can vanquish the lies of the enemy in His presence, those insecurities begin to fade away as He reminds me that His banner over me is love.
Today, I do not know what you are going through or what trials you are facing, but I can tell you that His grace is sufficient for you.
Stop, take a moment and just sit at His feet. As the hustle and bustle of the holiday season come to an end, do not be like Martha so busy that you do not have time to sit at the feet of Jesus. Today, take the time to sit as His feet and allow Him to strengthen you and give you His grace to be what He has called you to be.
If we are going to be successful mamas, wives, career women, or whatever our title may be, let us choose the best thing, sitting at the feet of Jesus.