Psalm 23 (NKJV) says “The Lord is my shepherd; I shall not want. He makes me to lie down in green pastures;He leads me beside the still waters. He restores my soul; He leads me in the paths of righteousness For His name’s sake.Yea, though I walk through the valley of the shadow of death, I will fear no evil; For You are with me; Your rod and Your staff, they comfort me. You prepare a table before me in the presence of my enemies; You anoint my head with oil; My cup runs over. Surely goodness and mercy shall follow me All the days of my life; And I will dwell in the house of the Lord Forever.”
Now, this is great news, but why does my heart tell me this is all a lie? How is it that I want to do the exact opposite and lead myself to believe that I know what is best for me? Why do I reject the leadership of the Lord? There are countless reasons such as rejection, hurt, fleshly desires, guilt, shame, etc.
Unless I am willing to lay down the lies that the enemy has tried to plant inside my mind and the lies I have planted as well, then I will not be able to be led by the Lord.
“Therefore, since we are surrounded by such a huge crowd of witnesses to the life of faith, let us strip off every weight that slows us down, especially the sin that so easily trips us up. And let us run with endurance the race God has set before us.” Hebrews 12:1 (NLT)
The lies drive a wedge between me and God. I have to surrender myself at His feet in order to allow Him to be my shepherd. I cannot embrace the rest He is trying to give me from a distance. It is with closeness and vulnerability that allows Him to enter inside my heart and do the work that He has intended to do.
His leadership in our lives allows the Lord to dissect our hearts and reveal the things that are hidden so that healing can take place. The closeness does not scare me, but at the same time, it does. Let me explain. I love being close to Jesus; however, when the closeness gets so close that things bubble up to the surface or He points his finger at something and asks if we can talk about it so that I can be healed and set free from it, that is when it scares me. Sometimes it is not just the bad things that get revealed. It is the good things as well because I have believed the lie that what I desire He will not give to me.
He woke me up one night at 3am to talk to me about my heart. Sometimes, I cannot sleep because I have not been deeply vulnerable with Him in weeks and sometimes months.
Being led by the spirit of Christ, our Lord and shepherd, takes vulnerability that goes beyond mere words. It is a brokenness that only He sees and a mingling of hearts that no one else understands.
I can try to do the Lord's job all I want, but the truth is, I cannot no matter how much I try. I cannot lead myself. In Isaiah 40, He tells us about who He is and what kind of shepherd He is. It says that He is the one who weighs the mountains on scales and measures the heavens by a span of His hand. He is reminding us that He knows what He is doing. No one taught the Lord all that He knows. He has been shepherding for a long time, and He does not need my help.
“Who is able to advise the Spirit of the Lord? Who knows enough to give him advice or teach him? Has the Lord ever needed anyone’s advice? Does he need instruction about what is good? Did someone teach him what is right or show him the path of justice?” Isaiah 40:13-14 (NLT)
I am blessed, and so are you, that the creator of the earth is taking care of us and leading us.
In what areas of your life are you not letting the Lord shepherd you in? Ask yourself this question, and ask the Lord too because He is the one who searches the heart. I pray that you would receive the shepherding of the Lord and that you would allow Him in the deep places of your heart.